GAHHHHH

everything has turned to shit in the last two weeks!! i was so happy. i had my full time job which i LOVED with the guy i was seeing (well i use that term loosely as he has an girlfriend and i was his misstres…) but then no i had to go get fired!! i though nothing would change. i thought we would keep seeing each other but the game changed. our outstanding date on a friday to “see each other” got canceled. no more kisses. no more cute texts and comments. the only only good thing was as we worked at an gym i still got to go in and see him when i worked out, but now he has put in his notices. he said he didnt want to work there with out me. gahhh fuck fuck fuck fuck!!! i hate my life!!! he live so far away aswell and the new job he has is in the city 9-5 same as his girlfriend. i know i could ge get an new guy but it wont be be same with out the fun of only us knowing and the sneaking around. i cant even turn to my mates as they all dont think that its an good idear that i was seeing him in the first place. they would all celebrate the fact that i cant see him anymore. (it reality he is 26 and bit of an junky and im 18… so they are right.. but they dont know what its like to be in an relationship like this)

i hate this i hate this. i am so fucking pissed. how could he do this to me!! gaidgwo ihrf bvhbvfjgvhfviguiny uy8iu

im going to get high… fuck everything!